I don't get it!

I've chosen to write here, because No one is watching, and really, what the heck good is that. I've been struggling lately with a number of things. A bunch of things have got me down. I've broken something that I could simply go out and replace, but I can't justify to my self spending the money, because the truth is I don't need it, I just would like it, so I'm not going to have it, I'm going to sacrifice it. ~ Starting very soon I'll be working closely with a person that I don't believe has any faith in the job I will do, and I can't explain my frustration. Also out of respect I choose not to say anything, because one, what if I'm wrong about it, and also I feel it's better if hold my tongue so that I may prove myself worthy with my skills rather than my words, even though I don't particularly care to prove anything to this person. ~ Thirdly I'm having some issues with a friend, I don't understand what's happening entirely, and I can't get a very great answer from them. All I want to do is help, but I don't even know how. All I've been able to do is pray, and I guess there is nothing better that I could do, but as much as I do have faith in God, and that He will do his work, as I've seen it before, but as a human like the rest of you, I don't want to wait, and I want all the answers right this minute. I feel like I'm going to explode, or implode, or other wise no longer be as I am. The bible says that if you ask for them, God will give you the desires of your heart. Sometimes I have wondered if what I want is just something on the surface, a flavour of the week so to speak, or if its deeper. The way I feel now has confirmed to me that this can only be a desire of my heart. If I dwell on it, if I feel it so strongly, how could it not be from my heart. I'd never really dwell on a surface fixation, would I? I'm not sure about that, but I know that This is deep, deep from in me. Even now as I say that, it feels odd to me, and I don't understand why.

lately

I know I havn't written in months, so here is what's going on. I've done a lot since i last wrote. Been to Alaska and the Yukon, and now over that past week I've been to New Brunswick, PEI, and right now I'm in Wolfsville Nova Scotia, with my brother Jordan, visiting my friend Kane who I tree planted with. We stopped in Ottawa and saw Phil and Andrean, also from planting, and in Gataneau to see my friend Eric who i went to college with. Tomorrow we're headed for montreal to see Chanelle and Konrad before heading home on Sunday some time. Thats all.

Daryl

Update

Hey All, I'm having a great time tree planting. I've met a lot of really cool people and have been having a lot of fun outside of the work, which is hardly fun but it's all good. Next weekend I'm heading to Alaska with Justin and Carson, for about 2 week break we have from planting. I'll let ya know all about it later. Take care.

Daryl

Leaving

Hey all, I'm heading back to BC in about 10.5 hours to tree plant for the summer. Not that many people concern them selves. I'll write again in August. Have a good summer.

Daryl

My Trip Home

My Trip home was different than I had pictured it happening. I left on a saturday. The tuesday before I had met a guy named Scotty at a bible study held by some of the War College students. It took place in one of the Salvation Army Shelters on E Hastings St, in downtown Vancouver. That night he'd given his life to Christ, Cut off about 10 inches of hair, and talked to his parents for the first time in over 2 years. He'd never had a great relationship with his parents, but he decided he was going to go home (to Hamilton) and the end of the month to see them. I don't even know what made me do it, but something told me to bring this guy back with me. So that's what I did, I offered him a ride back to Hamilton. I'd not takled to him for more than 10 minuets and I was about to spend countless hours in a car with this complete stranger, but I wasn't even worried. We talked about everything that possibly could have been covered, there was no topic left by the time we reached Hamilton.

We'd discussed what he wanted to do with his life, and he was very uncertain when we started. He said he liked a lot of things growing up, and determind that there was nothing he loved to do more than read. So by the end of that conversation it was dertermind that once he got back to Vancouver He would like to teach some of the people in the Downtown Eastside to read if the outlet for such a thing is available. So Matt, Katie and any other students out there who might stumble acorss this be expecting to hear from Scotty about this and if you don't I would encourage you to bring it up to him.

Long story short I had a really good time getting to know Scotty and sharing my own life and faith with him. Scotty if you're reading this remember that even when know one seems to love you God is always there, and has never left your side.

In Christ

Daryl

Counters

I'm just going to take a little swing at people who place a counter on there blogsite!

Unless its official stats for a business, it would seem to simply be an ego stoker, and maybe you're fine with that. If you're bloging about real issues that you really are concerned with, it seems a tad silly.

Maybe I'm wrong, it could have just been for fun, and that's all good, but probably without even thinking it, everytime that number goes up it makes you feel just that much better. Think about it.

dch

the rest of the story

Hi All, So you may have guessed that I'm not really living in a van down by the river, with one Matt Foley, that kind soul having been played by Chris Farley, and he's since passed on, so I moved out of the van.

I was on Vancouver Island just out side of Victoria in a place called Langford until Last Sunday. Apon departing I spent 2 nights at Jackie Carmichael's apartment, she is Laura and Jennie's sister, in Langley. From there I've travelled south of the boarder to Bellingham Washington, and have been staying with my friend Andrew who is an old school chum. I've pretty well been relaxing while I've been here, havn't done much of anything. We went to Seattle today, its about an hour and a half south. I Bought a new guitar while I was there. Very exciting, not the one I had planned on, but it never seems to work out that way, but I love it.

The next week of this trip is still uncertain, but it will be back in BC. Friday the plan is to go snowboarding with Tori Carmichael, ya there are a lot of them arn't there! And the Next morning the 11th I'm starting to head back to JP. Stoping in all the same places, and maybe also staying a night in Sudbury with my dear friend Sammy. Only, he doesn't know it yet. See you all real soon.

dch